[]baby fruit[]

its almost christmas, and that is pretty weird to write...it hasn't snowed properly yet, but they say 5inches this weekend...i can remember as a kid sledding and tromping around in the knee high snow until i could barely breath and loving it...it seems now i dread walking from my door to the car because the bottom of my pants get soaked with dirty street sludge...but something that has brighten my holidays: i got my cat tulser fixed! very strange transformation seemingly overnight from "kitty gone wild" to "mr. lap cat"...the vet said it would take at least one month for his hormones (i really didn't intend to blog about my cats hormones, honestly) to leave his bloodstream and then i would have a calmer feline, but as i type, he is semi-sprawled out near me fast asleep as i should be...another even brighter spot is my new baby niece ellie..she will be 6 weeks old and grace (her mom-my sis) and i are having a secret photo shoot next week...we are going to surprise her dad brian with really cool photos of his baby girl...i would like to dress her up in animal or fruit costumes, but i haven't got clearance on that idea yet...

[]see, its already starting[]

i just got the call

my sister grace has been taken into labor and delivery!!! the word "excited" doesn't do this situation justice for many reasons:

• baby elloise will be the first baby for our family! spoiled baby, table for one...

• grace has been miserable sick with toxemia...those symptoms will subside after the baby is born

• i get to assume the role as aunt adie from now on!

• ellie will probably be the most beautiful baby subject i will be taking photos of

[]you'll have to wait until i figure out how to post pics and links to all the madness in my life, until then, words and imaginations will have to do[]

[]gritty.gray.light[]

i wanted to share a dream that i didn't forget upon awakening

in about a three hour period, i had one of the strangest dream experiences...my sister was giving birth in a skyrise hotel/hospital, in which i had to ride the glass elevator to the 158 floor...i had a panic attack {which i haven't had one in real life, so it felt like what i've seen in the movies} because the elevator would rise and stop so fast that your body was controlled by the g-force, bumping your face into the clear ceiling, then back to smash it on the floor...so when i got to my floor, i slid out {water slide style} on to a cold, brown marble floor

soon the nurse was handing out the babies my mom had given birth to FOR my sister, but the babies were in egg shells, but human baby size...{in real life, right before i went to sleep, i had watched a documentary on crocodiles and how they lightly crunch on the eggs in their mouth until the babies swim out}...there were four eggs entrusted to the family for safe keeping until they hatched...no directions were given by the staff, although my sister was trying to get everyone to go watch "finding nemo 2" in the basement of the hotel /hospital, which i protested as ridiculous...

i choose to ride the service elevator down, as it didn't do that g-force thing...but it was scary in other ways...it looked like a scene from a tarantino slasher movie {blue/green gritty lighting, smoke filled, gray skin tones}...as we approached the ground level, one of the men started to burn me with his cigarette, so i yelled to this guy {sleeveless shirt, but full sleeve tats} for help, so he got between the cig man and me...feeling relieved and safe, until cig man reached around tat man to burn me again and again, but the tat man wouldn't do anything to stop him, to protect me...{WHICH is so very interesting because i was listening to the talent of jeremy larson and analyzing some lyrics : to stand tall, but not defend : which totally worked itself out in my dream, but stumped me in real life}

anyways, to close on a lighter note, i accidently broke my egg so i stored it in some tupperware and placed it in the microwave and pressed the "incubate now" button, of course...

[]kelly+blog= inspiration[]

i love life, plain and simple

although my life is anything but plain and simple...if you are on low 10x power (microscope talk), examining my life, you might see this: 28 year old female, works too much, cat owner (dog lover), sporadically visits the gym, night owl. switch to high 40x power, you see the minute, inner workings of a girl and her life: phases of codependency, yet mostly loner/independent, thick brambles of sensitivity, lover of Jesus Christ, a confetti of meaningful and fulfilling friendships, trashcan full of random thoughts, and a file cabinet full of others kind gestures and sweet nothings...nevertheless, many changes are taking form and i sensibly thought this might be the best format to remember my old self...anyway, kelly, you have been my inspiring force behind this...so thank you